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22 December 2008, 17:50 UTC#1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCd_iDbWKrI#
ilovecops.bigcartel.com Ilovecops.com iheartcops.com myspace.com/ilovecopsyo
instead of hyping this up, telling you how great it is and shit, I'm just gonna say how I really feel.
I did make the best fucking movie I possibly could. but every things gone to shit, I owe people money, the hard drive containing everything is fried [FUCKING YEARS OF WORK], buncha people in the movie are dead and even more are just dead to me, ive managed to gain jsut enough local infamy to do nothing but fuck me over a couple times. I had such huge goals and shit for it set up(including a much grander release), but the more they fall through the more I dont bother. ive basicly given up ever making a real profit off ILC, im in that deep.
I have like 80 dvds left, and all I wanna do is payback everyone involved the best I can. the movies fucking sick, but its a failure to me, im broke and I dont feel cool at all. I fear ive wasted the last couple years of my life chasing a dream. I have few regret's but releasing this movie wasn't the answer to everything I thought it was. I use to think of all the cool shit I could do when I finished this movie, the attention, the money, something to do and be proud of. but maybe it wont happen. I dont know if I was wrong or losing interest too soon. but after 5 years of putting everything into this, wtf am I supposed to do?
The end of ILC? I do w/e ilc can pay for itself, so who knows, I don't care.
Whats next for duran? w/e
if you ordered it, im sending it out tommorow. sorry.

-duran
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